Save Myself – Jane and The Boy

Holding my head again
Making my way through crowded thoughts
Sometimes it’s hard to get out of it
Broke my heart, in the dark
I was just trying to feel something
Falling asleep to the sound of it
Always used to let
You clean up the messes
Down on my knees
Thought I couldn’t stand up on my own
Turns out sometimes you’re stronger alone
Bringing out the fight, yeah
Bring on all the lightning
‘Cause I’m
Looking for a hero
Look inside the mirror
I find one, oh
Carry the hurt when it gets too hard
Pick it up, dust it off, when I fall
Down 11, I get up 12
Don’t need nobody else
Yeah, I can save myself
Got burned, but I learned
Our scars makе us who we are
Now I’m ten feet tall, ovеr my demons
Remind me no one’s got me like myself
Yeah, I love me without any help
I’m the best thing to believe in
For I’m
Bringing out the fight, yeah
Bring on all the lightning
‘Cause I’m
Looking for a hero
Look inside the mirror
I find one, oh
Carry the hurt when it gets too hard
Pick it up, dust it off, when I fall
Down 11, I get up 12
Don’t need nobody else
Yeah, I can save myself
Oh-oh-oh, ohh
Oh-oh-oh, ohh, oh, oh
Oh-oh-oh, ohh
Oh-oh-oh, ohh, oh, oh (ooh, yeah)
I could crumble into pieces
But I got a million reasons why I won’t
‘Cause this heavy is a season
And the sun is always right behind the storm
Bringing out the fight, yeah
Bring on all the lightning
‘Cause I’m
Looking for a hero
Look inside the mirror
I find one, oh
Carry the hurt when it gets too hard
Pick it up, dust it off, when I fall
Down 11, I get up 12
Don’t need nobody else
Yeah, I can save myself
Oh-oh-oh, ohh
Oh-oh-oh, ohh, oh, oh (eyy-yeah, can save myself)
Oh-oh-oh, ohh (myself)
Oh-oh-oh, ohh, oh, oh (I can save myself)
~~

She knows she’ll get her butt kicked if she
chooses aliveness. Her light will blind others.
Her darkness will not let her fit in.  Her success

will provoke conflict.  Her ways of healing will
be judged. Her enemies will want her to
cower. And fear will do its best to take her
down. So she draws a circle around herself and
keeps opening up. Because aliveness is
freedom.  She’s embracing the risk to bypass
the ordinary. And she is exactly what the
world needs right now.

~ Tanya Markul: The She Book

Don’t waste your time on anyone or anything
that makes you feel less than like yourself.  I’ve found
that one of the worst feelings in the world is
waking up to my soul whispering: stop being
an imposter, this isn’t  you.

So I return to the Trees, and that is where I see
my reflection and feel the scratchiness on my
shoulder blades as I grow back my wings.

I let go of who I was to dare and discover who
I am in the freedom of this moment, and just
like the wind, I know I’ll change again, but
gasp with excitement at the mere thought of
soaring in the breath of now.

RIP, old self. You Served A Great Purpose.
~ Tanya Markul (The She Book)

Inner Light ~ Loner Wolf

As St. Francis of Assisi once wrote, “All the darkness in the world cannot extinguish the light of a single candle.” Whatever you’re struggling with at the moment, whatever darkness is lurking within or without, just know that your inner light is forever and always burning within you. Even in our most lost, confused, distraught, and anxiety-filled moments, the inner light of your Core is there, ready to guide you home. Reflect on moments when you’ve faced this inner light before, what was it like? How did you feel? Seek to cultivate these numinous moments and find practices that help the inner candle of your being to grow brighter. Ask yourself, “On my deathbed, when all is said and done, what will truly matter?”